I am back after a very long hiatus. It feels good to write again. This blog has been my beacon of hope when I have been lost. I have always found solace writing here. There is always something about penning down your thoughts to paper. I can never lie on my blog because this blog has given me more than I can ever dream of. It is my second home.
Over the last year, I have learnt so much about me, love, patience, honesty, faith, belief, perseverance and hope. I learnt this from my Mystery Man (MM). I never told my Mystery Man when we were together how much he meant to me. I have never spoken about my personal life over the blog. I have never been good with emotions, I always bottle them up. We always understand the value of a person, when they are not in our life anymore. As humans, we take them for granted when they are in our life.
As a person, I am short-tempered. At times I say and do reckless things without thinking. Arrogance and short temper are two of my worst enemies. I never realised my weaknesses and how to deal with them. Past year, I have seen a lot of lows in my life. Through thick and thin one person believed in me and made me realise I was good, in spite of the things I did and said to him. For that, I would like to say thank you to my Mystery Man (MM) and I am sorry for everything.
We always let our ego do the talking. I am not perfect and I am done letting my ego do the talking. I have learned from my mistakes over the past year. I have learned humility, forgiveness, acceptance and above all respecting people.
Henry Miller once said: "One’s destination is never a place, but a new way of seeing things.” As a person, I want to change, work on my flaws alone and be a better version of me. I do not want to bottle my emotions up until I burst out one day. I can't speak to my MM directly. If you are reading this, they say a journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step, this my first step to tell you I love you and I am very sorry.
I know it is very hard to trust people who screwed you in the first place. It is hard to get into battle field when we are deeply wounded. Life and world would not be a beautiful place if not for second chances and faith. I don't know if I will get second chance with my MM, all I know is I truly appreciate what he has done for me over the years and I want to say thank you. He will always have a special place in my life.
We all have flaws, it is how we accept it and want to change that makes a difference. Never be ashamed to accept your flaws and work on it. Above all have faith in people and believe one day everything will be alright. Pursue something in life with honesty, integrity and without malice. If you deserve it, it will come to you one day. More importantly, tell the people you love how much they mean to you every day. Don't wait for a special occasion.
They say love is crazy and stupid, do let me know what something special you have done for your loved ones to tell them how you feel :)
Finally, thank you for reading my blog and thank you Murali for the amazing photos! I have difficulty choosing which photos not to put because I would have loved all the photos so much.
Until next time!
I am wearing...
Red Kurta - c/o Myntra Originals
Patiala - c/o Myntra Originals
Necklace - c/o Youshine.in
Bag - c/o Youshine.in
Ring - c/o Stalkbuylove.com
Tan heels - c/o Closet label - Malaika Arora Khan
Clutch - Shor Sharaba - c/o Rooja.in
Watch - c/o Daniel Wellington
Bracelet - Stilettos Diary Shop
Makeup - Yves Rocher c/o Debenhams India
Eye Makeup - c/o Loreal Sunset Collection